MY CRAZY YEAR IN REVIEW.

I’m going to make this one short and to the point. It’s crazy that a new year is right around the corner. For one thing that’s certain it’s been a Rollercoaster of events this 2016 year. We entered it already mourning my father in laws death to cancer. Five short months later my brother in law is laying in a drug induced coma for over 6 months now. On June 2nd we welcomed our daughter Sofia into this world. Ethan was celebrated on August 4th(turned2). Then later in June I lost my beloved grandpa Miron. Today my grandpa Julian is in the hospital dying. It makes me realize that  life is so precious and death is inevitable. So Cherish every moment with the ones that matter most because soo much can change in such a short time.

June 24, 2016

My face matched the sulken faces of relatives around me. Our eyes holding back tears that blurred our vision and eventually rolled down our faces. In a hospital room a man lay with his loving family around him. A husband, father, grandfather, and Great grandfather lay dying.

Holding your warm hand in mine one last time made my heart cripple. I kissed your forehead as I did every time I visited. Those particular tears stung the most. I was kissing you good-bye and knew it but there was nothing I could do about it.

They say once you lose someone you love the pain comes in waves. It’s true. Just trying my best to surf them out before they crash over me and wash me out.

Wishing to be in your presence one more time. Never had it occurred to me, all those times, that you might be lonely. Forever cherishing the memories that live on in my heart.

Life has changed without you here but I remember all you have thought me…Stay humble and pray pray pray.

Rest peacefully in the only Father’s arms you’ve ever come to know. You will always be a big part of me.

Missing you terribly : Your grand-daughter

 

 

BEAUTY: Not a one size fits all.

Beauty shouldn’t validate who you are as a person. Many girls in society are being brain washed by social media to live up to their own idea of the “ideal beauty”. And if you fall ever so short of such “perfection” the assumption is that no longer are you worthy or beautiful. I can’t imagine the pain I’d feel if my daughter (who only is 5 months now) would utter the words “I wish I was more beautiful” or “I wish I looked like her” because you are perfect just the way you are. Let the beauty of your heart shine through your eyes and smile to captivate others.

Imagine if we empowered other women. If we empowered our daughters,nieces and sisters. How truly beautiful that would be. Let’s open our eyes to see the different unique qualities we all possess. Don’t get me wrong I like beautiful things. Cherishing yourself and knowing your self-worth makes you beautiful. Be confident. You don’t need confirmation from anyone but yourself.

Beauty is not a one size fits all. Being different from the ideal is striking. Own it. Love the color of  your eyes.The shape of your nose. The color of your skin. You don’t have to be beautiful as someone else because you are your own kind of beautiful .

Parenting

 

This doesn’t happen often… A mother of two laying on the couch sipping coffee while it’s still hot! There sure is a lot of laundry that needs to be folded but it can wait. The kids are sleeping and there’s no need to wake them; We all know how loud folding laundry can be:p.  I Love these quiet moments I share with myself. Being a mother is the most exhausting beautiful thing to happen to me. Please let me tell you how naive I was 2 years back before Ethan came into our lives. I babysat my siblings, cousins, and nieces for a set time and back they’d go to their parents. Oh parenting… more then half the time I feel like I’m a crazed coffeeholic zombie.I think there’s a word for that: Mombie. I’ll tell you truly I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I might be more tired then usual today, tomorrow… until the day I die. But simply put nothing in the world brings me more happiness then my beautiful kids. I might just go wake them up right now… Yeah right I’m not that crazy yet. It also seems that I’m quite the procrastinator today.